The Glass May Be Broken

Earlier I had a conversation with a dear friend about my earlier post and they made a great observation. They said now that the glass is broken but now you don't have to worry if it half full, or half empty. So I have been thinkig about that since he said that. Can you imagine what our live would look like if more of us just broke the glass instead of trying to figure out its level of fullness. I live with several people and I have the opportunity to witness both sides of that coin and personally have lived on both sides of the half empty/half full coin. Now the realization I had this afternoon certainly is not the first nor will it be the last.After my conversation this afternoon I am going to strive to be more concious of my thoughts and make my decisions based not on whether or not I am in a positive or negative frame of mind but by if it is truly going to be benefitial to my life and sobriety. For years I have lived my life focused only on my little world unconcerned with how my actions affected others. I am trying to be much more aware of my actions and my needs. I don't always speak up or take action to meet my needs but sometimes I stop and say I am sorry I know I said I would however I need to get some more rest. Just about an hour ago someone criticised the meal I was making saying it was the worst meal I had made since I have been here. Before I allowed myself to get upset I paused and thought then it came to me its not that it is the worst meal I have made it is just not to his liking. If I continue to live in such a fashion that I am concerned with everything I do being to other peoples liking I'm screwed because they will never be pleased with the result and I will be miserable and I have made it a point to choose joy, love, laughter, peace, and serenity. If you give someone else the control you cannot blame that person for your unhappiness. they did not make you unhappy you did, you gave away the power.

I admit I am powerless over drugs and alcohol and that my life had become unmanagable.

I believe a power greater then myself can and has already begun to restore me to sanity

I have turned my will and my life over to the care of a higher power which I choose to call Goddess

I know that I have to take action if I want things to change

I know that my ego is just a reflection of what others think of me

I know that surrender is not always easy but is necessary

I surround myself with people that have willingness, good hearts, joy, love, laughter, and are willing to admit their faults

So what are you waiting for? Start living your life. Make a change. Dance, Sing, do what makes you happy so long as you dont hurt yourself or others.

XOXO,
Natalia